Re: We\'re all looking for something...
Tricky question.
Something they miss...
Something they already have...
Something they previously lost...
Something they need...
Something they should avoid?
To a large degree in my eyes, the core story of Babylon 5 revolved around three issues. Indentity. Direction. Purpose. A triangle between the Vorlons who knew their identity, the Shadows who knew their direction, and most people of the younger races, unsure about their purpose.
Sinclair found his purpose, after losing it.
Sheridan found a new purpose.
Delenn found a new purpose.
G'Kar found a new purpose.
Londo walked the knife's edge across the thick of it.
Vir refused to part from his purpose.
Lennier lost his purpose.
Marcus died for his purpose.
Ivanova missed her purpose.
Galen was near losing it, then found it again.
Countless soldiers died serving the purpose of others.
Lyta found her purpose partly corrupted.
Each defined their purpose differently, at different times. For some it was revenge, for some it was life, for some liberty and for some justice. For some it was equality, for some inequality. For some it was homeworld, for some the Corps, for some Vorlons or Shadows. For some it was the world around them. For some it was the future, for some the past. For some, purpose was another person. For some, an abstract idea like order or chaos.
Why am I rambling about this? Well, I try to extrapolate my guesses basing on how I perceived B5. In life, you cannot quite avoid the "why" question. If Martel is looking for something, the thing he is searching for (or the search itself) is his purpose, has been it, or may become it. However, how much are we really supposed to deduct basing on two hours? What could I observe of Martel? How does he think?
1. We live for the One... [snip] ...but we don't die stupidly.
His first sentence which I remember. To a large degree, as far as we know Martel, that's a defining statement. He has obviously seen people die stupidly. After the Shadow war, many have. He certainly is not G'Kar, who in his early years on B5 would have accepted a stupid death.
2. So, who did he see die stupidly? How did it change him?
Is he Sinclair, who saw his entire squadron (no, make it the entire Earth Force) die more-or-less stupidly, and expected to meet the same fate? Sinclair wondered why it happened, if something could have avoided it. Later, when he had the capability to change the future, he surely wondered if he should let it happen.
3. Reasons... justice... revenge.
If there is a similarity, Martel might be looking for reasons. Whose mistake, if anyone's, let people die stupidly? To undo the loss is not possible. Perhaps one can compensate? Which if anything could compensate? What should his purpose be, if he seeks to compensate in some way?
Would such a quest result in something beneficial, working for truth or justice? Could it draw him into revenge? What will he do, how will he change, once someone explains why they think people had to die stupidly? Which measures does he consider acceptable? Is his treatment of Kafta indicative of his nature? Is Martel walking the border between acceptable measures and "end justifies means". If yes, why is he walking that line?
4. Trust... support... company.
Martel certainly generates trust. After all, Dulann said he would trust him with his life. Others who had been with him earlier... also exhibited a degree of trust. Perhaps the ability to generate trust is either a positive or negative product of past experiences?
Has he seen trust, which was destroyed and betrayed, or has he seen distrust, and realized its consequences? Alternatively, if it goes more towards company, friendship and love... is any of those what he is looking for? Which has he seen, which has he missed?